One thing that has been incredibly fascinating to me through my journey is how quickly perspectives can change. I started this blog a couple of weeks ago. When I don't write it's because things are especially challenging and I'm just trying to keep my head above water. As I've tried over the past weeks to finish the blog it has morphed into a different focus. What I would have said 2-3 weeks ago about the winds, although true and valid is not what I say today having endured another incredibly difficult period.
The storm subsided after some particularly difficult days where the pain was so intense all I could do was cry. Saw my back surgeon for monthly followup and decided that regardless of everything else I just need to get my hips replaced, quit waiting for workers comp cause I'll be dead before they get things in order and see if we can find the bottom. A place from which to begin the massive rebuilding process of my life. Waddled upstairs to the hip surgeons office, still sobbing.......OMG resembling a puffer fish, big red, swollen eyes. His assistant, god bless her soul checked my legs and determined that my IT Bands were outta control with inflammation. Long story longer, she gave me cortisone shots in both legs and within five minutes I was a different person. Still crazy but not psycho. My question then becomes how does anyone determine what the heck is wrong with me on any given day. There is so much deterioration it is hard to determine, but on Thursday I was thankful for the nurse practitioner who was flexible enough to look for another option to my pain and her two cortisone shots.
I guess one lesson to keep in mind when facing challenges is perspective. Being flexible and open to explore other avenues, Whether the winds are warm tropical breezes or gale force winds, my best option will not be to open my umbrella, unless of course I'm Mary Poppins being carried away to something new and better.
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